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Tuesday, February 3rd, 2009
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5:10 pm - Jumping Jack Flash!!!!!!!
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I forgot this journal even existed! Got busy with work and school and life and this thing fell by the wayside and got forgoten. One of the local furs I hang out with commented that he had searched my old Joe Silverhand name on google and came up with this. Imagine my surprise when I found it. It's been years since my last update and my life has changed a lot since then. Been through a lot of shit storms but had a lot of good times as well. I am however, a different person then I was back when I first moved out from the parents.
I still have my beliefes, though they have settled into a comfortable state that I don't need to think about activly too much. I've started going to furry conventions, several a year in fact, and hang out with a local furs on a pretty regular basis. I'm a college gradguate (2 year) and am currently pursuing my 4 year. I'm even still living with the same room-mate, and we haven't killed each other and are still friends.
I don't really think I'll be updating this journal much anymore as I've changed so much since then, and I'm no longer a part of the draconic community (I left for the same reason many of the other older ones left, to much drama and the relisation that spiritual beliefs are not the be-all end-all of life). I'll post the link to my new journal here in another day or two for those who want to follow it.
Till then.
Joe Silverhand, now known as Moonshine Fox
current music: the podcast, Knotcast
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| Wednesday, January 4th, 2006
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8:46 am
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Hope everyone had a good holiday season. Now I'm off to school once more (school, blah).
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| Monday, November 21st, 2005
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10:24 pm - And I am back once more
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Hello everyone! I'm now typeing to you from my new appartment! My friend and I moved into a 2 bedroom, 900 squre feet flat in the mapleview appartments here in town. We got a good deal on the rent though the sheer cost of moving surrprised me and sucked a lot of my free money away. We have been living here for three months now and just got SBC DSL up and working about a week ago. I was going to update then but with finals and work I haven't had much time or motivation till now. It was kinda funny, we got local calling with the DSL and within the first day of that, we shorted out the line and they had to send a tech over to fix the problem by switching us to the other line. When we got the DSL modem and hooked it up, we had internet for about a night and then it went to hell on us. It took two techs then before they finaly found out that the phone tech didn't transfer the line the DSL was using from the bad one to the good one. Once they did that, bingo, instant internet. Now that finals are out of the way, it's time to get caught up on all my stories and web comics since checking my e-mail was about the extent of my 'net time before. See y'all later.
Joe Silverhand
current mood:  tired
current music: the sound of blazing saddles playing
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| Sunday, August 28th, 2005
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12:01 am - The end of an era
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This shall be my last post here in this home. My friend and I have finaly scrapped up the money that we need and are both moving out from under our parents. It'll be intresting to see how everything turns out, only time will tell if we can share the same apartment without trying to kill eachother.
As is song, every new begining comes from some other beginings end. It's the end of my living with my parents and the begining of me living on my own (well, with a roommate). Here's to the new age.
current mood:  hopeful
current music: Closing Time by Semisonic
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| Tuesday, August 9th, 2005
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9:03 pm
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Hello all you happy people! I have once more broken my word and havn't updated in a few months. Shame on me. Bad Silverhand, no cookie! Anyway, I at least have a valid reason this time, work every day and either a statistics class or homework every night has kept me busy beyond belief. Least this quarter is almost over and with luck I'll have passed my Stat class. Whoever thought a computer helpdesk worker needed this level of math should be taken out and shot. I think my gameing will benefit more then my work will.
Also, I ment to post about this a while ago but... Back in May I did something I have wanted to do for a while now, but haven't been able. I attended my very first Furry Con! Morphicon to be exact, Ohio. The con was great, I got to meet and talk with a number of very nice furs, they had a lot of panels and events to attend and the number of people there was still small enough that I didn't fell lost or never realy get the chance to meet people. Unfortunetly after the hotel cost and registration I didn't have a lot of money left for all the things that I wanted to get, but I did get myself a proper sized red fox tail made up, and two pictures of vixens, one an island dancer type, and the other an archer (what can I say, I've got a thing for vixens). I already can't wait till next year and am already planning on saving up and going, but this year I'm going to see about room sharing to ease the hotel cost.
I'm also finaly, possibly, going to be moving out! A friend of mine is escaping his parents and I'm working the numbers to see about doing the roommate thing with him. It dosn't look promising at the moment but I'm holding out for a last minute miricle. I'm sure I've got a spiritual marker or something with the Big Guy around somewhere for taking all the shit that's been thrown my way in my life. Gota get a break sometime in this life.
Hopefully I'll be updating a little more often, but then again, I've said that before. Later.
current mood:  productive
current music: Ordinary World -- Duran Duran
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| Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
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9:03 am - I'm BA-ack
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Yes, after nearly half a year I'm finaly posting again. I had been intending to post things here and there as I went, but dealing with a 40 hour a week work week, 10 credit hours at school, and a half-hour one way drive to school dosn't leave much time to sit and post things here. Heck, the only real things I've done online are check my e-mail and see if the stories I read updated (what can I say, I'm an addict).
Overall, not much has happened during the past few months. I've managed to pull my GPA back above 3.0 and I'm back on the Deans List again, something I'm quite proud of seeing as how I'm not exactly the most accidemic of people. I've only got about one more year of collage and then I'm out of there and into an IT job, probably on the nearby Air Force Base since they hire people of my field right out of Sinclair and Wright State.
Well, that's about it for now, other things have happened but none are intresting enough to talk about or I just don't want to talk about them yet. Hopefully in the future I'll be better at posting things (yeah, right, me, good at posting, HA!).
current mood:  relaxed
current music: doesn't it grate
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| Friday, October 8th, 2004
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8:14 am - Yet more random musings
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School's been going pretty good for me. Accounting isn't nearly as hard as I thought it would be. There is some stuff in there that is confusing (like T-accounts) but I've been able to figure it out well enough after doing the homework. My stress management class is going good, but the test is a lot harder then I thought, stupid essay tests. English is a heck of a lot better this time around then it was in the summer. The teacher is showing us totally different ways of doing things, doesn’t expect rote memorization of MLA documentation, and with writing multiple small essays rather then one huge one, I can learn how he like the essays written and can compensate and get a good grade. Long as I keep at it and keep up with the homework I should be able to do a good job this quarter.
And now for some rather fun musings from my screwed up brain :D.
OK, we where talking about booze in my gaming group of friends the other week (we got to see an honest-to-god lush (at least he was IMHO)) and it put us on the topic for a bit. I had also been reading recently the latest chapter of Identity Crisis, a story set (mostly) in the world of the Sabrina Online comic (go here (www.ic-stories.com) for the story, it's good, trust me) and started wondering. Laws saying that alcohol can't be sold on Sunday and that some stores are closed are called blue laws and where started by the church. Porno movies are often called blue movies (at least the good ones are) and I don't know where that came from. I have no clue what it means if it means anything at all, just something I found interesting.
Alright and here's another one. Scientists have estimated that our planet is something like 4 billion years old. Take off about a billion for basic evolution and you have 3 billion years with complex life forms. They date the dino's from about 120 million years to about 75 million years when they got wiped out by something. Humans, they estimate, have been around for only a few hundred thousand years if memory serves me well (and it often doesn’t). Now that leaves some good 60 to 65 some million years between then and some 2.5 to 3 billion years before that of time that we know little to nothing about. Makes me wonder what sentient life forms evolved during that time. I mean look at what we've accomplished in just the last 500 years, and you can't tell me that it's possible for a society similar to our to grow and die, or grow and leave this dirtball behind for parts unknown. Factor that in with some of the strange inconsistencies that crop up from time to time that few people seem to hear about and it makes you wonder doesn’t it.
That's all from me for today. Catch y'all later.
current mood: relaxed
current music: Dust in the Wind
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| Wednesday, September 8th, 2004
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9:50 pm
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Man, been a bit since I was here last but life got the better of my for a while there. I took summer classes at college and with working 40 hours a week also, it made for me having little time. I'm no longer in summer school, much to my satisfaction, and during my time off from last quarter and the comeing quarter which starts this Monday, I took time to relax. I even managed to head down to Fort Walten Beach Florida thanks to my vacation time at work. Not much that I want to put up right now, and my mom is bugging me to get to bed since I have work early tomorow. Hopefully with the time I have between classes this next quarter I'll be able to update more often (yeah, how often of I said THAT one). Later.
current mood: tired
current music: 25 year old hippy class reunion - ray stevens
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| Tuesday, May 25th, 2004
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8:44 pm - Strange thoughts at work
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All right, first of all, I work at Kroger in the produce department. I'm the guy who keeps your vegetables filled up, makes sure your salads aren’t expired, and checks to see that none of the fruit is going bad, along with cleaning up the palates and back stock to make room for the next days truck so my job is pretty much no-brainer since I've been at it for over a year now and have the stuff down to an art. With all that taken into account, my brain goes off into some weird directions at times. Most of the time it's stupid stuff or replays of stories, songs, or RP sessions I've had with my friends, but today's mental wanderings brought up something I wanted to put down for y'all to read.
I don't remember how I got on the topic, but I was thinking about the size of the universe (don't ask, *I* don't even know how my own brain works sometimes). Anyhow, according to the Big Bang Theory (the one I subscribe to), the universe started as a (relatively) small ball of hydrogen and other stuff. Then it exploded and started expanding so there could, in theory, be an end. Now, think to any computer/console RPG you've ever played (and if you haven't, why not?). Remember the 2D mini-map and how the symbol marking your character would go from one end to the other when you passed a certain point. Or think of the town of Sigil in the Planescape setting of D&D or a ringworld. I think that the universe is circular like that. When you reach one "end" your are just transported to the other; a completely circular universe with no true "beginning" or an "end". It also wouldn't have a true "center" either come to think of it.
Strange what my brain comes up with at work isn't it.
Later.
current mood:  thoughtful
current music: Technitar--Cajun Fox
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| Monday, May 24th, 2004
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10:42 pm
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Hmm, for some reason, the formating was not working on the last post.
Anyway, spent a bit of time on FurryMuck tonint. If anyone want to say hi, I'll probably spend most of my time in the West Corner of the Park and I now have an apartment in parkview towers, first floor. Later.
current mood:  sick
current music: To The Stars--music from dragonheart
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5:56 pm
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Things are chugging along pretty well for me here of late. I'm doing good in my classes and work is ..... well it's work, neither bad nor good. I just found out that my middle brother (who is older then me, I'm the youngest) is getting shipped out to Iraq in about two weeks here. He works with the navy as a medic and the unit he's assigned to just got activated. He dosn't realy know the details yet about where specivicly he's going, just that he's going. *sigh* You know, I supported Bush for a long time even after everyone else started to turn aginst him, but with everything I've been hearing from him here recently, my oppinion of him has gone down the shitter REAL fast. Then there is a rummer that the draft my be starting back up and that's the last thing I need to deal with. I'm a computer guru and a player of games, not some go-out-and-kill-them-yes-sir grunt, no offence ment to the people out there who chose to take the military path, I'm just pissed at those of us who don't want to follow the path being forced on it. I tend to be on the passifistic side, not that it's easy to tell that by the way I talk or the games I play but in real life, I try to avoid even hurting people if at all possible. It sorta comes with the territory when you grow up stronger then everyone around you, you have to watch out not to accidently hurt someone. The only time I ever felt the urge to realy hurt, or maybe even kill someone, is one time when someone threatend to hurt my family. People in the Middle East who just want the US to get the fuck out of their contry and let them try to get on with their lives don't land in the, seek-out-to-kill catigory with me. I already have enough dark emotions running around inside my head, the last thing I need to do is put blood on my hands to fuel them. Well, hopefully it will never come to that and I can leave that for the people who can and want to be a soldier. Them, I salute.
OK enough ranting about that, only other thing I can think of that's intresting in my life is that I just signed up on furryMuck! I aim to try and change my lurking tendencies by accualy taking part in the conversations. Guess I'll have to see how that goes. If any of you hop on the Muck and see me, say hi, I'm going by the name Joe_Silverhand.
That's all for now, time to hop on the muck for the first time and see if I can ignore the cold that's making me feel like crap. Remember, Insanity is not a state of mind, it's a way of life. Later.
current mood: sick
current music: night of a thousand furry toys--pink floyd I think
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| Friday, April 30th, 2004
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11:40 am
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Got some free time in my computer class so I figured I might as well update. Between 40 some hours of work and 9 or so hours of school dosn't leave much time for online fun stuff. I got my grades for last quarter and found out I made the Deans list. Me, the non-academic person, made the deans list. Last time I made any academic standing of note was when I made the honor-roll back in 4th grade. Hopefully, and with some work, I can get that again this quarter. I'll just have to see. I have also got myself a new van! The old Aerostar finaly started to give up the ghost so I decided to sell it and get myself a new van. I found myself a '96 Ford Windstar at the same used car lot on the AFB as I did the Aerostar. It's in very good condition with only the stereo having problems and it only cost me $4800. I must say I am quite pleased with my choice though I'm still not fully addapted to how it handles compared to the Aerostar. In my Friday night gaming, I think the group I hang out with is having a bit of problems. We're snapping at each other more then we normaly would and it's starting to effect the group as a whole. Hopfully we'll work something out soon and get everything back on track. I just can't wait to we go back to Hunter the Reckoning (the storyteller for that is takeing a break, do a lot to the above mentioned problems) or I can start up a Mage the Assention. Guess I'll just have to wait for a while longer. That's about all from me for now.
current mood: drained
current music: Who want's to live forever -- Queen
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6:17 am - Dreams
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I need to get this put down someplace and this seems like a good place to do it. I just woke up from a dream about 10 minutes ago, one that affected me very deeply. I don't remember much of the dream unfortunately. In the part I remember I was sitting with someone who in the dream was my wife, I can't say what species she was, I don't remember, but I know it wasn't human, and I don't think I was human in the dream either. We where going through a ritual, probably of her species, of naming a child. There was rolled out scrolls nearby, old looking ones like you would see in a church or something, and we where building the name out of a necklace. The symbols used in the necklace where not English, I don't even think they where from a human language, but in the dream I could understand what they meant, even if now on wakening I can't. I must have known in the dream that I was going to wake up soon because I kissed my wife goodbye and left the building with tears coming down my face. Then I woke up, and started to cry for real.
It scares me that something like that can come to the front of my mind so easily. The craving for a wife and child to love, it was so strong on wakeing, and realizeing that none of it was real, it was like someone punched a hole in my chest, I want it to be real, with every fiber of my being. I'm so used to telling the world that 'I don't need that, I'm happy on my own'. I've told everyone else that so much I've come to believe it myself. Then something like this comes along and rips the lies I've built around myself away like they where nothing more then mist. I'm used to being a man with strong emotions, when I feel something, it's a strong and deep feeling. Loyalty, love, rage, hate, I've hade to control them else they could get out of hand. Then a simple dream comes along and destroys my control, exposing me to my emotions in all their fury, and it leave me terrified. Losing control of myself like that is my greatest fear.
Well, I've got to go and get ready for school, to put the mask back on. I just needed to get this down while it was still so fresh in my mind.
current mood:  sad
current music: Somewhere out there -- Fival song
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| Sunday, March 21st, 2004
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10:31 pm
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WOOT!!! *does a victory dance*
No more school! After ten weeks strait of going from school to work to sleep to school with homework thrown in at random times with some gaming to keep me sain on Fridays, I'M DONE!! Well, till next week, then I have to go and do it all over again. Ah well, that's what it'll take for me to get a degree and by God, I'm going to do it.
I just have to wait for my grades now and the suspence is driving me crazy. I know in one of my classes, basic opperating systems, I got an A in, the class was easy, just requiered of me. The other, program logic and design, I'm more nerves of. I think I did good in it but I'll have to just wait for the grade to come it.
The group of friends that I game with just started a new game, Hunter the Reckoning. I don't know if any of you have seen the anime Ronin Warriors or not but it was a good comparison. I started watching it later in the series and saw them going "500 enemy soldiers to the two of use, 5 minutes." type deal. Then I saw the first episode and saw the five of them get there armored butts handed to them by a lone soldier. Our first adventure, our imbuing as it were, was a lot like that first episode. A rot, the weakest enemy we could face, reminicend of good ol' fashin zombies, kicked us around. None of use took any damage thankfully, but it took us a while to take him down. It was great! I already can't wait till the next time we play, and for the time we start with some of the other supernaturals and superhumans into the game, I'm a big fan of Werewolf.
That's all for now.
Remeber, madness takes it toll, please have exact change.
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| Wednesday, February 4th, 2004
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12:08 pm
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*walks in, plops tail down* man what a week last week was. Between studying for two tests and a lack of sleep do to bad dreams I was realy dragin', still am a bit but with the tests out of the way and sleep being dreamless again I'm springing back to my usualy self. Ment to put this up on Monday but I got a bit sidetracked and didn't get to it till today. At least it all turned out well, I got a 85% on the harder of the two tests, one of the highest in the class. I haven't got the other test back yet but I have a felling I did magnificent on it.
Game last Friday was loads of fun. I had foxhunter run it as I didn't have even the small amount of planning that usualy do for Shadowrun ready, and I must say he ran a masterful game. I was using one of my other shadowrun charecters, Chamber, an orc ex-lone star officer turned shadowrunner who's two favorite sayings in life are "If it has a trigger, I can fire it" and "Be prepared". We where highered to hit a gang weapon convoy going into the elven lands and take them down hard. We got to the site, set up and waited. We saw the convoy come 'round the bend and didn't think much of the additional vehicle from what we where told to expect.
I made the first hit, useing a weapon that I will probably never get to use again, a Grand Dragon Anti-Tank-Guided-Missle. I watched the expression of Foxhunter face when the missle hit and I told him the damage it did. Goodby vehicle. Following that with a smoke gernade to make sure the rest of the convoy couldn't hit us very well and a line of conncussion gernades had the 2 truck drivers and guards ducking. Unfotunetly, they had a trained mil-spec team that did catch Extream_Rice and myself with a line of bullets, but we lived. Thanks to a very large forest spirit and some more gunplay we won the battle with only those two wounds.
Then we found out the bad news, it was the wrong convoy, we had hit Ares rather then the gangers so now we have to lay low for a while till the heat cools down. All in all prety fun. I would still perfer getting back to our Deadlands champain though, I like Shadowrun and all, I just perfer Deadlands more.
That's about all from me for now, I'm going to go home, change the oil in my van, and sleep some more. Till next time.
Joe Silverhand
current mood: sleepy
current music: Wheel in the Sky
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| Monday, January 26th, 2004
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10:07 am - Snow Day
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Ah, I love winter. Nothing better then getting up in the morning and finding out that your classes for the day have been canceled by a measly two to three inches of snow and a bit of freezing rain. I like what my Grandma said the other night. She's up in Minnesota and they got only a little bit of snow, nothing much, just 5-6 inches and she and my Grandpa where going to go out to eat latter. THAT'S the winter I'm used to, not this Ohio one-inch-of-snow-lets-panic-emergency crap, I'm cold country bred and say the more snow the better. OK 'nough for that.
Like I promised I'm trying to keep this updated more often and fall back into the shroud of time. Other then dealing with the massive crowds of people going through Kroger this weekend (it was like Thanksgiving all over again) the only thing that happened in the game this past Friday. For those who don't know (can't remember if I mentioned it before or not) The Game is when my friends and I get together for a night of gaming. We just switched from Deadlands to Shadowrun with me behind the Screen O' Power(TM) :D
In the Shadowrun group we have Foxhunter playing Raven, a female elf adept with a specialty in pistols. She can shoot good enough thanks to adept powers to kill someone with a light holdout pistol (think derringer) in one shot, it's sick. We have Mandy playing The Shadow, a female human covert ops/sneak spy style character with skills in electronics, computers, and braking and entering. extreme_rice is playing Blackjack a female human infiltration expert. And mortalenemy is playing Hovey-Tovey (I have no clue how he spells it) a human male (the only one in the group) shaman of Raccoon.
In this round of the game, they were contracted by a Mr. Johnson they know by the name of Mobious to recover the kidnapped daughter of one of Seattle’s politicians for a price of 10,000 nuyen each. They first broke into a facility that had a blood sample of the daughter (see never did get a name that I remember) so they could find her using ritual sorcery. They got the blood sample, killing one guard and the on duty mage and rendering the other two guards unconscious. They tracked her down to a warehouse currently used by a newly uprising wiz-gang and hit the place. They did a good job for the most part, using a combination of spells and a grenade to get access to the building. The Shadow was going in from the back to try and find the target while the rest pulled distraction in the front. Raven and Blackjack went in and started to work on a room of gangers while Hovey dealt with banishing a fire elemental that came at him. While trying to clear the second room they went in of gangers, Blackjack got hit with an adept who proceeded to pummel her severely, while Raven through a grenade in to deal with the other three gangers in the room. Raven then stepped in to help Blackjack by aiming a number of rounds at the adept. He managed to dodge the first three, in large part that to some cover from diving behind part of the wall while the last bullet hit the wall. Blackjack then stepped around the wall and finished him off with a burst from her SMG proving the old Shadowrun game rule, he who runs out of combat pool, dies. They then finished off the rest of the gangers without too much problem.
During that, Hovey came in, having dealt with the elemental and got caught by a spell from the mage leader of the gang and got some info on his past (he's got total amnesia) before the rest of group came into deal with the mage and his students. The mage, called Darious, summoned up a blood spirit and activated an anchoring focus containing a powerful barrier spell and left the group to their fate (and a recurring bad guy for me). They managed to deal with the blood spirit and the remaining student, killing them both. During all this The Shadow was sneaking around the warehouse and managed to find the target and started to free her when the rest of the group found her. They took the target out of there, set the place on fire (it had a high background count that sickened Hovey), and called Mobious to get the rest of their money.
You know, the party had been getting real paranoid of Mobious and I think I finally realized why yesterday. They have done three runs for him so far; the first was through another Johnson of theirs to retrieve an ancient book of occult rituals for Mobious. The next two runs, contracted to them by Mobious was the run above and a previous run to kidnap a young man who was close to experiencing, and I quote, "a unique Awakening". They later found out that the girl the rescued was both a potential mage and a virgin, going for that whole lots-o-powerful-blood thing. I think that they think that Mobious is up to some dark ritual. Hehe, I love being an evil GM sometimes, 'specily when it makes the party paranoid.
Well, that's all for this time, I'm off to do some stuff before work, hopefully it will be dead today with the "major snow storm" (listen to my sarcasm).
Oh, one more thing, if anyone knows how to do the journal cut thing, can you let me know, that way to won't be subjected to my game talk if you don't want to listen.
Till next time.
current mood:  predatory
current music: Open your Mind by DJ Vix
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| Friday, January 16th, 2004
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8:47 am
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*Walks in. Looks at last post date. Lets out low whistle.*
Dang, didn't realize that it had been so long since my last update, bet the lot of you out there must think I up and died or something. Well, I'm still kicking, just been busy for a while now. I've been working at Kroger produce department for just over nine months now, 'bout the time of my last post. I also didn't have internet access, or at least not good access, for a while there once my account at Wright State got cut off. I've since had road runner instaled and am now back online, though I haven't realy checked any of the message boards I still have membership to. I think I'll try and get back into the communities here again soon when I find some time.
In other news, I've finaly started back up at school with the begining of the new year. The main difference is that I'm now at Sinclair Community Collage instead of Wright State. Sinclair is cheaper and I can acculy afford it on my salary.
Well, I'll try to keep this place updated more often in months to come, provided my hours at work and school don't get in the way, so that way I won't seem like I flew off into space. I'll also try to make my posts more coheaent then this one (it's early yet here). Later for now.
Joe Silverhand
current mood: tired
current music: None--in school computer lab
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| Wednesday, March 12th, 2003
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5:56 pm
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Dang, didn't know it had been so long since I updated, my internet time has been sporatic at best considering if I get on at home my parents are constinly looking at what I'm doing. I've managed to land a job at Krogers working produce, it pays crap but it pays and has health coverage. I'm working on getting a good paying job with a local security firm, I just need to wait for them to finish my background check. Shouln't be to bad since I haven't done anything to give me a record yet. That and I applied for a position at Wright-Patt air force base, it'd be a big feather in my cap if I could get that one. If all goes well I'll have enough to move out of my parents house and into an appartment by the begining of May. Other then that, life is quite dull with work, eat, sleep, and hang out with my friends once a week. Hope it stays that way for a while yet.
current mood:  happy
current music: Night Wolf--I have no idea who sings it
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| Friday, December 20th, 2002
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8:36 am - End of a stage in life
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Well, despite my doing my best, I messed up on my math final and didn't hit the GPA mark I needed, so I got the boot from Wright State. I don't even know how much I'll be online in the next few weeks as I need to set myself up with another job (I have been working on campus but I can't continue without being a student) and setting myself up with an apartment. You would think I would be more upset about this but I honestly can't say how I feel. Yeah I'm upset that I failed and got expelled, but with moving out of my parents house into my own place I have a hell of a lot more control over my life then before. I can actually stay out late if I want to, I don't have to be constantly wondering if my parents are ever going to find my hard copy journal I keep and read it. I can display my sword and daggers and put the pictures I want on the wall without worry. Well, *lifts a glass* here's to luck and a new stage in my life.
On another note, all those something-shadowy-chasing-me reoccurring nightmares I've had seem to have stopped. They seem to have stopped about the same time as I had that fox dream. Heck, when I think about it, all my dreams here of late have had that same fox in it, just sitting near me or walking alongside me, and no one else in my dreams seems to notice him. Least I've got someone or something looking after my dreams.
That's all for now, I'm off to start looking for a job and an apartment. Luck.
PS: my email service, dragonseek, seems to have had gone deaf or something as I can't get any messages to come into the in-box. I've sighned up with mantogsilverhand *at* hotmail *dot* com (yes I'm a bit pariniod of e-mail harvester programs) so pop me a message there if you want to talk.
current mood: looking to the future
current music: Dancing furs by DJ Vix I belive
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| Friday, November 15th, 2002
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12:12 pm - Bad Week
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Man, talk about a week of bad stuff happening. First of all, I had a test in all of my classes, all but one on the same day, and all of them had to be hard. Then, I had to write a paper on health useing a personal experiance or a news artical for one of my classes and I though, I'll just use the immune system dieses, Addisons Dieses, that I have. So I went to look up info on it as all I knew about it was that it made my immune system less efficent, a cold usualy puts me in bed for a day or two, and is the reason I'm so huge. I found out that not only is it a chronic sickness and I'll have it the rest of my life, but that it can flare up into an acute attack that can kill me, wonderfull news, least I know what symptoms to look for now and it ain't killed me yet, so I must be doing something good. Then, I get home to find out that my grandpa has not only been in the ICU for the past few days, but that they now have determined that he has hepatitis A and was delusional and didn't know where he was at for a while there.
*sigh* Ah well, life goes on, just hope my grandpa dosn't kick the bucket for a while yet, hope he gets to see at least one more thanksgiving and christmas.
current mood:  melancholy
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